Help me.

Sometimes curling up into the fetal position isn't enough. Sometimes, you want to do something more. Run away. Hide. Die. To get the hell out. Thats what I want. I know they love me, somewhere in their hearts, they do. But until I can feel that love, thats what I want. I don't know what to do. I'm that daughter. I'm the daughter that won't ever live up to their expectations. The one who is a disappointment. The one who is using up the money on education, taking up that room in the house, making those grades, not living up to those expectations.
I want to yell help me from the top of a mountain. But I can't. Instead, the words come out in between sobs. I just can't do this life anymore. I don't know how to go on, or what to do.

F-R-I-E-N-D

"Hey remember that time we were friends?"
"No, I don't"- because you are mean to me, you lie to me, you ignore me, you leave me out, and you hurt me.
You turned my friend into someone different. I hope she wakes up from this trance you put her in- because no one would ever want this poor girl to take after you. Please leave her alone so she can return to normal.... Thanks...... A LOT

Tennis

Oh tennis... Even though I lost- I love to play. Tennis is a sport you can play for the rest of your life!!!! Except when you play a cheater- "Out" uhm excuse me??? That ball was clearly in. I love hanging put with friends at tennis tournaments. M, M, L, and me L all have a great time trying our best and having fun! Tennis is a great sport- even if you are just playing for fun! Have a great night! Love y'all!!!!

Everyone knows you are not supposed to call girls

fat or ugly. Even if they are, NO ONE wants to hear that. It hurts. So why do people think that I’m the exception to this? On Valentines Day? From one of my best guy friends? Ouch. Hey Ugly! I don’t care if he was joking. Jokes are supposed to be funny, not mean. Then I was called fat in Spanish. I TAKE SPANISH!!!!! YES I CAN UNDERSTAND IT!!! My Valentines started well, and ended in sadness and broken heart. Yay… Whatever, I set a goal last month to be over the person I liked by Valentines Day. GUESS WHAT?!?!? I REACHED IT!! YesYesYes!!!! Being a metal box in a room by yourself gets tiring. I long for a day when someone will love me. For me. And yet another year goes by… Tragic. Haha just kidding. I hope everyone else had a better Valentines Day than I did! Love You All!

Today is Valentines Day!!!! I made Valentines for my entire class this year.... and hand addressed everyone of them. There are 100 people in my class... Never Again. It was a lot of fun though! I hope you all have a really Happy Valentines Day!!!! LOVE YOU!!!!!

So thanks to my friend Mya, I've started blogging. I consider Mya to be one of my best friends. She is always there for me, and is one of the only people that actually understands me. She recommend blogging to me to make me feel better. She was right- it does help to write things down. Mya- you are possibly one of the greatest people in my life- thanks for all you do for me.